Saturday, May 30, 2009
Black Paint...
Such a pretty portrait painted of yourself lacking all shadows and straight flowing lines
The blank spots on the tapestry a necessary reminder that your truth is incomplete
Lest the boundaries of your life be torn and past and future compete
But so discreetly whisper the poison born from experience driven delusion
Until the very smiles you've worn tatter to empty wide eyed confusion
As you look around at your world made sober, laughter coming faint
What will you do with emptiness made over? Walls worn with black paint...
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I’m Tired…
Tired I am…
In my soul I'm weary…
Tired of holding on to something insubstantial…
Tired of thinking that I may be special…
Tired of missing…
…you, the truth, satisfaction, an angry reaction…
…festers and pours along my skin enveloping all of me in misery…
I'm tired of my mind too strong to control…
…my thoughts running like small children before the dinner call…
…tired of last calls… burned up cigar wrappers… and empty shot glasses…
…tired of the masses,
I want something fresh something new, something interesting, something true, I want something besides the memory of you…
…tired of only feeling the emptiness of where my heart used to be…
To be free… is to be lonely… to be in love… is to be disappointed… to be alive is to be dying…. and all smiles eventually lead to crying.
I'm tired….
Call Me A Liar…
Living life with a smile as the world cyclones around me in a shit storm of penalties, sin, and ignorance.
Why is it I love and others die….
When I think that I'm ready.
What's your plan?
Do you really want to keep me alive to torture me?
Even though my heart pumps you waste your time torturing the dead the damned and the broken….
Save it my heart has spoken…
Save it for someone who has not yet awakened to the horror filled reality that walks these streets.
I walk these streets…
I don't need a billboard to see the sadness reflecting in the wishing pool begging for mercy with the flip of a penny.
I don't need the news to tell me that millions pray at the bed side of sleeping children crying for the light that shines through the eyes of those too young to know the truth.
The nightmares are real…
Time passing by too slowly to notice the embers cooling to ash…
And another innocent becomes aware of the world…
Our children will grow into the walking dead.
Corpses with hard hats and leather brief cases…
Corpses wearing Prada and Gucci sun glasses sipping tasteless drinks by polluted waters breathing in the death that pours from smoke stacks, aerosol cans, and cars that drive in meaningless directions.
Sad… but I smile.
Call me a liar and be called one for your trouble…
See you there pretty lady…
Scandalous sinful pride will wander she who believes herself greater than those who chose to believe her. I will be the poor… I will be the dirty… rather than live in egomaniacal persecution of self. Kiss the stars dear one… you can't take it with you… and once you come unto nothing... as all things do… I will be waiting, waiting there for you. Only it won't be the dreams I haunt but the inky blackness of your self projected prison… shaped from your formless sinning… see me there richer by far… poor but grinning.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I Slept With Truth
I slept with truth once…
Tasted it… but not while I was hungry
I looked deeply into the eyes of truth
They were shifty
I lay there next to truth
Feeling so comfortable in my embrace
But the form was ever shifting
I slept soundly
But truth tossed and turned
Having nightmares of time
I awoke next to a corpse
And I left… kissing truth upon a cold brow
I danced on nightmares fire
Slipping away gently to the rhythm of life
Softly tip toeing upon awareness
Finally rescinding to dream
And returned to the bedside
Where truth still dozed
Neither awake nor sleeping
The unrest keeping relief just out of reach
I lay down again
Dreaming of the time
Where promises
Run out of thought
Making a liar
Out of the past
Monday, May 11, 2009
You’re ‘Dereliction’
Bless me with patience but curse me with purpose
Grant me strength to turn back from worthless
I do not need your pillows of lace; Nor the comforted heart full if grace
I just don't want to see the smile on your face
Laughing at my bloodied disgrace
How dare you taunt me and curse those that want me
When It was your reflection in the knifes direction
When it was your voice that caused a suicidal infection
Capitalizing on my own imperfections
Who could blame my marital defection?
The reasons were clear and not up for question
Don't blame me for your poor recollection
Divorce for me has been my own resurrection
And if it was put up for an election…
I'd rather go through life without an erection
Than see for one second your smiling complexion
Nothing better to do than hatred projection?
On the wall labeled the "Reed Section"?
Fuck you hater, start a coin collection
You'll never get past my own introspection
Nor my desire to lead a life of perfection
With the one person I managed to make a connection
If you fell from my world in complete disconnection
There would be a lack of nothing with the exception of objection
No more suicide smiles in my direction
No more petty Myspace inspections
Just my life…
Finally going…
In a good direction.