Thursday, February 18, 2010

Forever

I look upon you
Take your soul by desire
And stay forever

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Chasing Dreams In The Night

Running from the image of you
chasing a dream so dark
it seems the light is escaping
leaping shadows
pass in front of my heart
making me doubt
the existence of dawn

because its been so long...
since I looked into honest eyes.

been so long...
since I've seen clear skies.

and its been so long...
since I felt your surprise.

when all love has ever been
was a clever disguise
for rage building inside
corrupting our hearts and minds
blinding us to the irony

of our catastrophe
the beauty and the mastery
of life's intricately woven tapestry
and fraying at the ends of my sanity

is my desire to be set free
from the demons that haunt me
images from a past that forgot me...

PLEASE GOD GET THEM OFF ME!

I just want to be...

...ALONE...

...alone...

All I hear are the echoes
of the dripping of memories
pooling and shifting...
draining....
into the very being of me...

whispers of clearing skies
whispers of love and giving
all my believing meaning
while I search beyond scars and seeing
that there is nothing here worth keeping
just forward moving leaving
needless junk in heaping
piles of tears, hopes, and bleeding...
Who needs them?
I stagger forward toward
a dim ray of light
while shadows pass
crossing my sight
head bent forward
I tread on dark night
never stumbling in my fight

...boxing shadows in my flight...
...away from you...
...while chasing my dreams in the night....

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

...Draining...

I'm just a Virgo chaotic poet
devoted to my own words
that surged through the gateway
of my own mind unheard
by the pen that spilled ink...
I never really took the time to think
if these lines stink
or soared to new brinks...
I'm just trying to avoid shrinks
and drink to the harmonious vibes that blink
in and out of my mind then sink
to new depths I never thought my lines could reach
I push free speech to allow missteps and misspeaks
because I always found that perfection is boring
always ignoring the beauty of mystique
by lack of creative entropy
my lines like lives are always survived
by conniving wives
and I'm lucky to be alive with all this hype
lucky that you and I wasn't the right type
2 sets of chromosomes 9 months and one night
am I only here to walk through fire?
dance through your flames and smile
3rd degree burns only hurt awhile
compared to the acid in my throat the bile
from having to stare back at your lying smile...

but its ok... I can take it...

put on a smile of my own and fake it
slip the nightmare over my sight, remake it
this feeling of deceiving I just cant shake it
what little trust I had in love is now fading

...but like I said... It will be ok...

maybe you will love me tomorrow
like you did yesterday

maybe all of this sorrow
will melt and drain away

maybe I'll fade...
...changing...

...finding a new wave length
to use and sail away...

...Maybe...